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Sunday, 08 April 2012
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It's been a while...
Not much to say now. May type more later. Been into self-art photography a lot in the last year, and I wanted to share:
^ "Frost"
(Taken just days ago...)
^ "Deer Eyes"
(Taken this past...August..? '11)
^ "Don't You Love Me..?"
(October 2011)
^ Just a profile pic I had liked..
(^ This one is Dustin. Obviously not me. But artistic portrait photog, none-the-less.)
^ "Fox Trance"
(Taken about...a month ago..? February 2012)
^ (February 2012. Same day I took "Fox Trance")
^ (Dustin and I. February 2012)
^ "Static Limbo"
(August 2011..?)
^ October..? 2011
Like I said... I might have more to say later. But still wanted to share these. Pretty damn proud of every last one of them. :)
Feedback welcome. Kindness appreciated.
Tuesday, 28 September 2010
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Cheers for fall...
Life is...just kind of happening at the moment. Days go by. Then weeks. I get depressed. I get happy. I get angry. I get depressed again. Then I sleep a lot. Then Dustin and I have this huge, horrible, end-all fight, to where we're both bawling...and after all the rage subsides, then we're happier.
Weird shit just happens. Over and over.
For almost 15 months now, I've been all his. And during this time, I haven't really even found others attractive. I mean, I'll admit it when someone is attractive, no matter what gender they are, but at the same time, I no longer find others personally attractive. Just him. Which feels amazing, and I really, really love it.
He's the best friend I've ever had.
And he and I are making all kinds of little what-if plans...
Like...
What if we had money to do exactly what we wanted..? I.E.:What if we found a small fortune? What would we do with it..?
Some things that we both more or less danced around were...
1. Getting engaged.
2. Finding an apartment.
3. Me getting my license/a car.
And he and I are making plans for fall. Yay us!
Plus, I turn 21 in a week and several days. :D W00T!!
Tuesday, 03 August 2010
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Fuck You. (A list)
Fuck you Ben.Fuck you Megan.Leslie, do whatever. You'll be unhappy either way.Fuck you Darc. You're a cheater.Fuck you Kraft. You're a prick.Bryan, ironically, you were a dick when we dated, but I miss your conversations. You weren't terrible.Fuck you Jenna. You're a whore. Thanks for stealing one of my best friends.Fuck you twice, Megan. You're a filthy whore. You're gonna catch something--whether it's herpes or a right hook. Don't care which it is, but it's inevitable.Fuck you Jared, for being spineless. You're still my friend when you return, as long as you're still you.Fuck you twice, Ben. You are an evil to be reckoned with.
Thursday, 04 March 2010
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Currently
Ocean Eyes
By Owl City
~* "Fireflies" *~
see related
Photo time!!
^ Dusty & I, at his Aunt Sandy's. December 2009 ^Hi.
^ This one was 100% kidding, but... One morning a girl friend and I were talking about how there's a little one in Dusty's family that's half black, a.k.a. 'mixed', and I said something about how Dusty wouldn't look much different if he were black. Then my friend said "If I could doodle that, I would so do it..." or something, and next thing I knew, I was drawing a black version of Dustin. XD Then, after I had showed her said doodle (and we laughed our asses off..) she was all "I sooo want a copy of that." so I started drawing a second one, but stopped before shading it in, and thought they made a nice comparison, so I left it. =P
^ This is also a drawing of Dusty. I drew it several days ago. XD I think it's pretty accurate, at least facially. He held an antler up to his head on Friday, and I thought it was too darn amusing NOT to draw... ^
<-- My "notes to self" one night.
What's happened lately, you ask?
I watched Disturbia. All of it. Finally! (Took me almost a year to see the second half after I started watching it. XD)
Dustin and I are going to a metal show in Columbus! It's in like than two weeks, and I'm super excited! :D In all likelihood, it should be awesome, even though metal isn't exactly my thing. I'm giving it another try. And Dusty & I get to have a mini-road trip, which just makes me the happiest little cracker jack..!
Dustin & I have been going out for 8 months now. =] As of yesterday & today. (Our technical anniversary is between the 3rd & 4th of July, around midnight to 1AM... lol. Long story short, that's when I said "yes", I would be his. And I've been his ever since.) He & I are still closer than ever. We fought a little bit over the course of the last couple days, but we talked through everything necessary, and we're both being loving & kind again. Winter is just making us both unhappy.
Speaking of my hippie kid, I can't wait until I can finally call him something bigger & better than "boyfriend". I cannot wait for the very first time I'll get to call him my husband. He already is, in every way that counts.
^That's Dusty & myself, from October 2009. ^
Winter is wearing on my soul. It's giving me a severe case of cabin fever where I'm angry & depressed all the time. Spring needs to come soon. For serious.
I'm still working on letting go of the past. But I wrote 'Forgiveness' on Dustin's ribs, and I meant it. I will stand by it. I need to pray about it, but progress is definitely being made. He is more than his past, and so am I.
I'm trying harder than ever to be a better person. Especially to my better half. He will have my best, just as soon as I get there. And I'm starting a new era of spiritual awakening. It's gonna be big.
I feel substantial religious conviction. Somehow this will bring Dustin & I nigh, too. I can feel it. When I feel convicted, he reacts positively, and that gives me a lot of hope.
I'm starting to love & respect myself more often. If not for Dusty, I would have probably never sought consistent self-love. But I'm working on it.
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I'm going to be going through monumental changes soon.
Talk to me people! Hit me up & comment or something. :P
'Til then, I'll just be an optimistic little bird.
- Hippie Jen
Thursday, 12 November 2009
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"Millions of Peaches..."
- Love is a spectacular thing.
- Patience can save you a lot of pain, but sometimes it can also cause it.
- We'd make some adorable babies. =D (Just give it 5 or 10 years...)
- When I finish growing up, I'll make one hell of a mother. [I had some great teachers, but I still have some things that I'd do differently.]
- I can't wait for the next full moon. It'll be cold out, but I can't wait to see it...
- I'm thinking more about the future.
- I'm thinking less about the past.
- Goals for the next 5 years:
- Read Walden by Henry David Thoreau
- Marry Dustin
- Find a sense of purpose
- Goals for whenever I get bored in the next 6 months:
- Build something dumb
- Evolve my insight
- Figure out how to see my aura, or stop thinking about them. =P
- Cover something with an epic amount of post-its
- Watch "Dead Poet's Society", Disturbia", & "Higher Learning"
- Write an updated Gratitude List...
- I'm working on letting go of the past. And not just my own...Dustin's, too. It's Day 2, and so far so good.
How is everyone? Good..?
About Me
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I'm just a girl. I live in the middle of nowhere, pretty much. I love Dustin Lee. I love the outdoors. I (used to) write a LOT. I am a Christian girl from Ohio. I enjoy partying with family and friends. I'm a 2008 VVHS graduate. Currently, I'm taken, sexy, and artsy... throughout life, I try to be original.
