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Thursday, 12 November 2009
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"Millions of Peaches..."
- Love is a spectacular thing.
- Patience can save you a lot of pain, but sometimes it can also cause it.
- We'd make some adorable babies. =D (Just give it 5 or 10 years...)
- When I finish growing up, I'll make one hell of a mother. [I had some great teachers, but I still have some things that I'd do differently.]
- I can't wait for the next full moon. It'll be cold out, but I can't wait to see it...
- I'm thinking more about the future.
- I'm thinking less about the past.
- Goals for the next 5 years:
- Read Walden by Henry David Thoreau
- Marry Dustin
- Find a sense of purpose
- Goals for whenever I get bored in the next 6 months:
- Build something dumb
- Evolve my insight
- Figure out how to see my aura, or stop thinking about them. =P
- Cover something with an epic amount of post-its
- Watch "Dead Poet's Society", Disturbia", & "Higher Learning"
- Write an updated Gratitude List...
- I'm working on letting go of the past. And not just my own...Dustin's, too. It's Day 2, and so far so good.
How is everyone? Good..?
Tuesday, 10 November 2009
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Currently
By the Way
By Red Hot Chili Peppers
"Can't Stop"
see relatedWhat am I thinking about lately..?
1. Dustin is effing amazing. There are literally days now where I think that from the time I get up until the time I go to sleep. He is wonderful & a half.2. Mashka is in town and I get to party this weekend! And she likes Dustin. Everyone in my family that has met him likes him.
3. My parents adore him, too.
He's the first boyfriend I've ever had that they like. We all hang out together & talk on Friday nights sometimes. It's spiffy.
4. I'm going to read Walden by Henry David Thoreau, finally. I bought it Friday with some left-over birthday money. I'm excited.
5. Lately, I've made a lot of lists. I have one for long-term goals, one is kind of a combination goofy/short-term. And this one.
6. Dustin & I partied at Kraft's on Friday...all night. I've missed him. He seems like he's his old self, but he might be going to jail soon because he did something really, really stupid in July. I hope his sentence is short, because he's different now than he was then.
7. I still don't have a job, but I'm still sleeping weird.
8. I really hope he proposes in 2 years or less. But not within the next year. With as close as I feel, "girlfriend" doesn't even begin to feel sufficient. <3
9. I'm drawing more, and my artistic side is coming back. I think I have Mr. Dustin Lee to thank for that. I'll show you guys what I've been up to:
^ I drew that dragon for Dustin about a month & a half ago. I'm pretty proud of it. 
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If anybody likes that stuff/wants to see more artsy shenanigans by me, see my dA account, here:
http://cyanideandcake.deviantart.com/
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If anyone wants to see pics of me & the people I hang with, there's my myspace page:
http://www.myspace.com/cyanideandcake
It's got tons of pictures!
<3But yeah, life is pretty good, lately. I feel sexier than I used to, and finally realized that the only person whose opinion matters when it comes to attractiveness is the guy I'm with, so I should stop feeling the need to please everyone else all the time and stop giving such a fuck about everything. That right there is pretty liberating.
Tuesday, 20 October 2009
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Currently
Disclaimer II
By Seether
- "Fine Again" -
see related"And I Am Aware Now..."
"...of how everything's gonna be fine, one day too late..." [["Fine Again" --Seether]]
So, I guess it's update time:
In early September, I dropped some applications. No calls. I need to go out & fill out some more, but my sleep schedule has been really screwy lately...
I went to Indiana on September 11th-13th, with Dusty & his mom. It was for his cousin's wedding. The trip was quite fun.
On September 16th, a friend of mine died in a car crash. I miss him. It's the first friend I've ever lost, and I felt so horrible for his parents, as 1-2 years ago they lost another son.
My ex, Darc, apologized to me about a month ago for not treating me right. Best apology I've ever gotten, and I imagine the most sincere. And he talked about some good times/parties/etc... and Dusty was right there the whole time, but later remarked that he's not that bad, when he's not being a jerk. Darc is a better person than in the days of he & I, and I take credit for helping him to see the changes he needed in life, because I was the reason he sought change. Losing me bettered him. And that's pretty spiffy, because now he'll better someone else and hopefully be happier.
I deleted my ex, Ben, and I blocked him from every account I could block him on. I was tired of him starting conversations to bitch me out, call Dustin an "asshole", tell me how I should be living, that I'm a bad person, that I've changed, etc. (BTW, Dustin is the absolute BEST person I've ever considered dating, let alone been with. Ben's basis for calling him an a-hole was because Dusty wouldn't drive him to the town over to buy condoms. Dead serious.) So, that dick is deleted from my life. He'll be the only ex I don't talk to / end up on friendly terms with. His loss. Big time.
In early October (the 7th) I turned 20. It's weird, but it feels great not being a teenager anymore. I still haven't really celebrated, but I definitely plan to.
I went to my first metal concert with Dustin on Saturday (the 17th). It was sick, but pretty fun. The bands were Soulfly, Prong, Cattle Decapitation & Mutiny Within. (The lead singer of Cattle Decapitation looks like an angry version of Jim Brewer, the stoner guy in "Half Baked"...haha) Then we partied at his cousin Roscoe's house. (I'm pretty reasonable at Flip-Cup, as it turns out.)
In about 2 weeks, Mashka & Gilbert come up from Georgia. Dustin & I are supposed to party with her, so I'm pretty excited for that. November partying is always good. Plus, Dusty will be my first boyfriend to ever meet Mashka (my aunt, Marcia--if you would like the story behind the nickname, just ask 
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Oh. And I'm in love. No question. He respects me, he loves me, makes me happy, and he thinks I'm sexy & amazing. Oh, and he likes my artistic side. He's the real deal. And I love him to pieces.<3 I get the feeling I'll marry this boy.
As far as today goes, I'm not sure. My mood has been a little up & down lately. A lot of down, but it feels like things are going to improve soon.
How is everyone else this week?
Thursday, 27 August 2009
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Currently
Never Take Friendship Personal
By Anberlin
~* "A Day Late" *~
see relatedI made a list, over 3 years ago. I was 16.
It went like this--
"What I want in a guy:
-Thinks for himself
-Funny & not serious all the time.
-Can carry a decent conversation
-Hopefully taller than me (but again, this is not required...)
-Is nice
-responsible & slightly (to heavily) independent
-Must like Roller Coasters! / thrill seeking.
-Must love God. (MUST LOVE GOD!)
-Must respect me/my family/my friends/& mine and their stuff.
-Has to get along with my family and friends.
-Has to know how to have fun...
-Honesty
-Maybe smarts?
-Not controlling!
-Does not anger easily.
-Can take the sarcasm I deal out.
-Shares a similar level of maturity."( When I read this the other day, I realized my current boyfriend matches everything, whereas those before him have had parts missing. It makes me love him all the more.
)Dustin, you are the best gift God has ever given me. <3
Thursday, 05 February 2009
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Currently
Jim Croce Photographs & Memories: His Greatest Hits
By Jim Croce
~* "You Don't Mess Around With Jim" *~
see relatedSo, Here's what's up...
So I've been sick.
And listening to Hendrix.
Hendrix is pretty rockin'.
Thinkin' 'bout gettin' a myspace.
(I hate myspace, by the way, but I feel like by not having one I'm missing out.)
I've slept 3/4 of the last 2 days away. I was down in bed and sleeping for like 18 hours straight.
About Me
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I'm just a girl. I live in the middle of nowhere, pretty much. I love Dustin Lee. I love the outdoors. I write a LOT. I am a Christian, from southwestern Ohio. I enjoy partying with family and friends. I'm a 2008 VVHS graduate. Currently, I'm taken, sexy, and artsy... throughout life, I try to be original.
